Being
aware of my own presence or personal energy is very important to the
personification of my persona. We are nothing but biological machines that run
on electricity. This energy, through patience and practice can be manipulated,
hopefully always for positive results.
This practice is as old as religion itself and is the basis for many
wiccan beliefs. So I have always adopted their rule. Do no harm. That energy
can be focused to create positive and negative charges.
Knowing
how to Key up my presence when the time is right; but also how to key down that
presence when in the domain of another is crucial to survival in this culture
for me. Before going into an event or speaking engagement that I need to be THE
one in charge or the authority I concentrate on that energy that is inside me.
I bring it to the surface so that in my
mind it radiates from my skin. In a sense, like a static field. Others cannot see it but I have found over
the years, that others CAN feel it, other D-types will get agitated by it if
they think that this area is THEIR domain. Submissive personalities will be
drawn to it like a moth to a flame. They don’t know why, it’s charming or
charismatic; whatever word one would want to use to describe it.
Now
if I know I am going into the Dog House of another D-type I will purposely Key
it down. Withdraw my energies within me as to not RUB the Big Dog’s fur. The
reaction that is produced is a calming effect, their energy just kind of flows
around me. I don’t block them but much like a smooth boulder in a stream it
does not hinder the flow but I am not effected by it either. Ever talked with
another D-type at a function and they just felt like sandpaper on your skin?
For some reason they just irritated you?
You don’t know why, it’s not like they did anything wrong; they just
don’t FEEL right? These are individuals
that knowingly or not have Keyed up their presence and are trying to include
themselves into your own personal space. Even subconsciously we may forcefully
block them in self defense, and we come off as being rude or cold towards the
person. Once again the trick is Attention to Detail, by noticing what is
happening you can refocus your energy into a Round form. Not blocking them,
which would feel defensive. But not pushing back either which would appear
offensive. Apathy is a great mental defense, just appearing Not to care.
Many
times I have learned that I must also Shield myself from others. In this life
there are those that will pry into your energy; maybe not even knowingly. There are those that subconsciously use their
energy to persuade or charm if you will those around them. It’s not always with a negative intent but it
is not entirely honest either. How does one protect themselves from these
invasive personalities?
In
my experience, invasive persona’s often use questions to get you to open up and
think closely on a subject. That gives them an opening for them to invade your
space, your natural defense are down because you are accessing your memory
banks to answer the question. One of the most charismatic speakers I have ever
heard in my life, NEVER answers a question. Ask him what do you think of the
color green? And his replies will have you questioning if there is really such
a thing as green; but he will never have answered your question. Well practiced
defense.
Touch
is also another probing mechanism used by many. Ever met those people that are
just to touchy feely and just kinda give you the hebe jebe’s? Many people knowingly or not use touch to
Tune in to your energy, for positive or negative results it still sends off
warning bells in our own defense’s. I
have found 2 ways of dealing with these kinds of people; offensive and
defensive.
Defensive; a simple withdrawal
from arms reach, and a snarky remark “personal space (doing the personal bubble
with hands).. You mind?”
It is said the best Defense is a
good Offense. Offensive; when my alarms go off, I offer a handshake as a means
of ending the conversation, focusing on a strong firm grip, quick and sharp. I
have found it often registers as a warning to invasive persona’s. I might be
guilty of putting my own little charge into the handshake.
How does someone identify and build this Charge?
For
me I have found a combination of practices helped me. My first step was meditation. Getting the usual
quiet environment. I found at first that a comfortable sitting posture was the
best. Laying down I often fell right sleep as I quieted my mind. {also a useful
tactic for those of us that can’t sleep due to Busy minds} I will concentrate
on a specific skin area on my body. I found at the start the wrist or lower arm
was the easiest. Focusing all my attention on this area, I would start to feel
a tingly, electric kinda feeling. Like when your hand goes to sleep and it gets
that tingly feeling. Once that feeling
is there, slowly picture it moving down your arm to your finger tips, then
disperse it across your hand; kind of like spreading ink on your finger tips. With practice this can be done with nothing
but a few thoughts.
Once
I could identify this charge, I could use a Kata (practiced movement) while
practicing with my floggers or single tail. While doing the Kata I use the same
technique as the meditation, forming the charge in my arm and drawing it to my
hand , then releasing it into my whole hand.
This practice allows me to maintain my charge while doing something else
physical. Now once I could do this without much thought, I found I could move
the Charge around my body at will.
Self
confidence and a sense of self control is a great thing to an extent. I found I
had to be careful that it was not perceived as Ego. Self confidence in ones
abilities, if not countered with a healthy dose of humility will be perceived as
arrogance.
Why go through all this?
Managing
your own personal current is a very helpful tool in mastery of self. I have
found that it works wonders for blocking out unwanted pain. Headaches, muscle pain,
and such annoyances. I have found that it is very useful in calming myself down
in stressful or controversial situations.
By
being able to recognize and focus this energy, I am more aware of those around
me that also practice this type of self management. It has made me more sensitive to the empathy
of others, and more aware of those that consciously or subconsciously use this
skill set for self serving purposes.
There
are hundreds of uses for this ability that you will find for yourself.
Last but not
least; “For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.”
If
I use this skill for my own personal development
and self management, everything goes great.
I found out in my younger years that I could use these skills in
interacting with other people. Really
BAD idea, it ALWAYS backfired on me soon or later.
Using
my energy to amplify my charisma or charm did good, for a while. I was the best
thing since sliced bread to this or that person. Then sooner or later that
charge came back to bite me in the backside. Not only did the person not like
me, for no explained reason their contempt of me was off the charts. Going out
of their way, to be vindictive, and hateful. If they were asked Why?, they
could never give a reason. Nothing could be said or done to change this persons
feelings.
I
used to use this ability in casual play to enhance the pleasure or pain of my
bottom. Targeting their pleasure points, and nerve clusters, that would easily
conduct their own personal energy. For
some reason, my casual play partners were becoming obsessed with our scene
times and annoyingly clingy. Through research I found, that sharing just a little of someone’s own energy creates
a bond between the two forces. I found
out the hard way that I could create , what some call Energy Vampires unintentionally.
From my own personal experience using my own energy to interact with someone
else’s Chakra or personal energy was risky at best. Not something I take lightly today, as the
negatives often outweigh the positives. So when I went to break off the
relationship, the pain of separation was amplified by the amount of personal energy
I had transferred to that person.
So in closing, this is a great
self awareness skill to learn. In my pursuit of mastery of self, my awareness
of myself is crucial to my own growth. Feel free to use what I have learned and
shared, but please also heed my warnings and learn from MY mistakes first.
Do No Harm
